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I'm disgusted, furious and simply too much at loss for words at LJ for yet again doing something so incredibly and amazingly insulting as they have plans for now. I'm far too tired to write out something remotely coherent about this myself, thus, the rest of my entry is quoted from over here.

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* Gender will be a mandatory field at account creation, and it will be able to appear public on one's profile. (I can't tell if people with existing gender specification will be defaulted to "nobody can see it" or "everybody can see it".) (Subsequent changelog reading indicates that the public specificity has since been removed. It is unknown whether this is to require public specificity in the future or if it will remain private.)

* LiveJournal is removing the Unspecified option for the gender field. That's right: you get to be male or female. Period. That's it. (Source.)

If this pisses you off as much as it pisses me off, go to Edit Profile and select Unspecified for your gender option. Then, go to http://www.livejournal.com/contact/?dept=feedback and politely register your displeasure. (The people who read and process Feedback are not the people who make the decisions. They are often the people who are yelling internally about the decisions.)

(This will likely take place at the next code push, which given LJ's history will be either this Thursday or next, so spread the word fast, especially to the genderqueer community. After that point, you will no longer be able to pick "Unspecified" as your gender.)

Here is what I wrote; copy and paste as much as you'd like:

( Feedback letter )

To also reach someone who's higher up the food chain than the poor staff members who have to read and reply to Feedback, also email anjelika@livejournalinc.com who is Anjelika, GM of US operations.

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Yeah. I just. What. No words. At all.

ETA: LJ gave us some answers. (eta in the linked post)

Finals today. And I already know I'm not gonna pass, because this fall has been mad. I haven't had any time to study what I needed for these exams. So I'll just go there and take 'em and go back home and study to re-take them in a month. Yay, no Xmas break.

I'd already made peace with the fact that I'm not passing today, and then I went and dreamed about the grade for Eiko-sensei's class (conversation) and got all hyped again. Because that class has no exam, so it's what you do for the sessions that counts. And hall if I haven't worked hard for her classes this year (another reason why I haven't studied enough for the rest of the classes). So my hopes there? Pretty damn high.

On another note.

Wish me luck today! XD

Going to my parents place this weekend wasn't all that pleasant. Sure, seeing everyone again was nice (especially since my aunt and BABY VIGGO who's 6 y/old now and really not a baby anymore made a surprise appearance), but the fact that my family are the only ones who still calls me by my female name (everyone else who doesn't know/approve at least calls me Elict) and sees me as a girl through and through was really tough to deal with. The reason is that I haven't actually told anyone but my mom about me yet... my dad knows, because mom told him, but he hasn't talked to me about it yet so I'm guessing he doesn't take it to seriously or else he'd wanna know more from me. Mom doesn't accept it, as I've said before.

I honestly hadn't thought that it'd be that hard to deal with no one knowing, but... Little stray comments from my brother, my aunt telling me that "no matter what you change your name to, you'll always be cute little Jonna to me" (she's seen my new name on Facebook)... It just didn't sit well. Which I'm really not used to, because I love hanging out with my relatives. And I really don't want that to change.

I guess things not changing isn't a choice I have, if I'm gonna go through with this. Which I've realized more than before that I have to. Or I can't live. I seriously can't live my life as a woman. With the date to meet the therapist finally set, I've started thinking about what might happen if they decide I'm not allowed to get treatment.

I think I might kill myself. No matter how much my friends and boyfriend accept me. I can't. Fucking. Live in this body.

Liulfir arrived yesterday! This is all you'll see of her because I'm waiting on a number of things for her, and she won't be put together till next month at least.


Behold my orange kitchen bench! It's been awhile since I've had a blank doll in the house that's this expressive without a faceup. The last one I think was Zeus.
( woo, blank dolls! )

I'VE GOT A TIME AT A THERAPIST'S.

The nineteenth of January.

YESSSSSSS

Apparently I have to fill out some strange kind of survey about my alcoholic habits, if I have problems sleeping or eating, if I have any kind of OCD etc. I like how the first question in the part about alcohol is "ARE YOU A MAN OR A WOMAN". They couldn't have made one a bit more specific for specific problems, eh? Or at least added "ARE YOU PHYSICALLY A MAN OR A WOMAN".

I'm gonna fill out "MAN". Duh.

The How's My Driving? Meme


I should just go back to bed. Why am I even awake zzzz

- Both Liulfir's head and her pauldron of awesomeness will arrive today! :D Now she just needs... everything else XD

- Went and saw my brother's kitten yesterday. OMG SO CUTE ;0; The lol thing is that he called me up the other day asking for names, and I thought to myself "Well I can't pick a name that my dolls have" and then he called her Lulu! XDDD I loled even more when I worked out that he with her makes Lilu, as I call him Li for short XDDDD I made sure Jonesy got hugs and pats too though, so he doesn't feel ignored. It's so weird picking up a giant cat after playing with a widdle kitten. X33333333

- It's gonna be 39 degrees on Wed (I cbf converting that to farenheit for you kiddies).. I had planned on doing some xmas cooking and sewing, but I think I won't be moving from the couch in front of the aircon now. :S

- Bought myself a dress yesterday that I actually feel pretty in! :D It's long and white and floaty, and with my current blue and black hair it's all a bit Tatiana. XDD It's gonna be my xmas lunch dress. :3

- Avel's hanging out with me at work, and each time I look over at him I smile. Dolls make me happy like that (You'd hope so after how much time and money I've invested in them XD)

- Liulfir's head has shipped! It should arrive next week. X333 I still need to get the rest of the materials to make her wig, and she needs a body, and her eyes haven't arrived, but still. I bought her some Dollshe Urethanes during the promo (cause I couldnt' say no to effectively $22 for a pair of urethane eyes), and they're meant to be shipped at the end of next week, so hopefully I'll start getting her together by the end of the month.

- Alice has been in China for the past couple of weeks getting a new faceup by the lovely Bread. She's finished that and Alice should be on her way home next week! :D

- Brendon's not working tonight so I get to spend time with him X3

- My brother got a new kitten, so I'm gonna go and see it tomorrow. Aww kittens. <3

I've had a very nice and quiet evening for the first time in a while. I actually spent my time visiting a café I've wanted to check ut for a while now, and it was so cosy, even if I was by myself. It's connected to the chocolate/tea shop and the café owner runs the shop as well, so I bought tea and sea salt chocolate while I was there. I could just sit down and read and draw and just take it easy, as opposed to the stress I kind of always feel if I sit in school and work. The café had internet connection too, which was really nice.

They also has the most amazing hot chocolate ever. "Winter Mint Chocolate". Really special, and I love mint chocolate.

That and it's nice to just be out on this town when it's getting dark and there's a lot of lights and christmas decorations everywhere. It's just so pretty and ... aaah idk how to describe it. /is a dork

Hello all you lovelies! I wanted to give the F-list a heads up that I am listing my customized Soom Amber for auction on DoA... She would make a lovely holiday faun *___*

My greatest annoyance right now is gender-divided public bathrooms. Because I don't look much like a guy, y'see? I keep getting weird looks, or even comments, when I try to go to the men's room. And I can't even defend/explain myself, because my voice's so damn light (not the lightest of female voices, true, but nowhere near as deep as it should be to pass as a man's voice).

I fucking hate it and it makes me dread to go to the bathroom when away from home.

Dear self, you (really, really, really) need to

1. study (as in stop reading hetalia fanfics until 2.30 am. instead of studying).
2. stop wasting your mornings on completely unproductive and silly activities such as cosplaying England. Although that was actually an X-mas gift for shake_it_buddy, so I guess it's okay...?.
3. start writing the damn New Years greetings post (too much awesome people on f-list).
4. ...pay the US-wig you bought for Aki for X-mas. (it's friggin' gorgeous and I can't wait to see him in it ♥♥♥)
5. FUCKING STUDY.
6. stop trying to teach yourself British English.
7. stop using hetalia to get away from studying.
8. upload more hetalia icons.
9. Convince shake_it_buddy not to sub and upload the video of me cosplaying England in school, to share with the entire Hetalia comm. I'm not even in that comm myself.
10. LEAVE THE BLOODY COMPUTER AT HOME WHEN GOING TO THE PARENTS PLACE THIS WEEKEND. God.

God. Hetalia, what are you doing to my life. I used to have at least a little self-restraint. What the fuck is going ON.

I don't know if it's because I slept in today or what, but my body clock is all fucked up today. I keep thinking its about two hours earlier than it is. :S

So, good things. I bought a new zipper foot to replace my missing one, so I can get back to commissions. I also bought some fabric, because I'm compulsive like that. I made Tatiana a dress with it, and I'll probably make some more dresses out of the leftover fabric in Super Gem size (with a different bodice to flatter the boobs) to sell when I get a chance. I have enough for one more in this colour, and two in whiteXblack, so we'll see.

I took her out for a shoot to show the dress, and I didn't like any of the full bodied pics. It might have looked better if I'd got further back to do a wider shot, but as usual it was wind tunnel city in my backyard, and I didn't want to risk her falling and me not being close enough to catch her. I've learnt that lesson with Lilu :/



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Okay, so the reason I was still at work was because just as I was about to leave at 2, Louis offered me a free ticket to the movies tonight. So I hung around till he finished and we went off to see The French Kissers, which wasn't bad. Full of cringingly lolsome moments of teenagers exploring love and sex.

And a meme before I go to bed:
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This packet of French Fries DOES NOT END.

AND OH MY GOD THEY'RE SO SALTY, YET I CANNOT STOP EATING THEM.

WHY AM I STILL AT WORK? I HAVE BEEN HERE FOR 13 HOURS.*









*I haven't been working for the past 4 and a half though.

15:e dec = jap. exam, start studying to re-take exam XD

17:e dec = education for the Student Council's website

18:e dec = jap. movie history class ends, start writing essay

20:e till 27:e dec = skiing with family + writing essay

28:e dec = work for Student Council + hang out with Janna

29:e dec = Tina comes over ♥

30:e dec = Leifa comes over ♥

NEW YEARS = find a theme for party. find a PLACE for party. invite people to party.

4:e jan = Leifa goes home + last day to finish essay

Sometime inbetween = re-take exam?

15:e jan = move to new apartment

...HAHAHA WHAT THE FUCK DOES "CHRISTMAS BREAK" MEAN?

I love my friends and having things to do and all, but fuck.

Spent the weekend celebrating a Year with Aki. I'm looking forward to many, many more years with him ♥

Thank you apology, staticraven and abandonreality [edit] and hello_scorpling for the virtual snowflake cookies! I were so surprised; I've never received any virtual gifts at all before! So it was a super-nice surprise to log on to ^^

And now... Aaaaah, fuckit. I have my exams in a week and I'm totally gonna be failing I still haven't started for real on kanji and DAMMIT I SUCK at kanji. Fuck. Better start making plans for the studying for re-taking the exams right away =__=

Anyway, won't be available much at all until after the 18:th. You all have a good week ♥

I can't remember how I entertain myself when I'm on my own. I'm so used to coming home and Brendon being here lol.

Avel's been hanging out with me all day today. I randomly decided just as I should be leaving for work at 5am that I had to bring him along with me. Only problem was that he wasn't actually on a body, so I threw his head, Kingston's body, clothes and pliers into a bag and put him together at work. XD

I'm so happy with him, even though he's far from complete. He's possibly one of the most expressive dolls I have - ranging from sweet, to serious, to cocky, to evil with simply a change in angle. Which is more than perfect for his character, as some people who have read what little I've written about him could attest to.

Anyway, I took him out to take some photos in the tall grass out the back.



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So I started working on this skirt. It has about 40 "petals" made from taffeta, all beaded. I've worked out each petal takes approximately an hour to bead if I can get it done without being distracted by calls at work. I've only done 8 so far in two and a half days x.x

You'll never see me doing something this intricate to sell. I worked out how much it would cost in time and materials, and I estimated it to be around $1000, and that's just breaking even. Mind you, the cost is mostly labour.
So yeah, I hope no one is expecting to see wonderous beaded creations up for sale, cause unless it's a little bit of detailing, I won't be making it.

Brendon starts his new job tomorrow, hooray! It's just a month's work, but that's better than nothing. The only issue is that we're working very different hours, so by the time I'm home for the day, he's just started working. So I won't see him much :( But it's only for a month, so I'm sure I'll be okay. I'll just have to try and spend that time working on commissions and other things.

Oh, and thank you to whoever gave me the little snowflake on my profile page. It's very cute :D